Day: May 11, 2020
And be filled with the Spirit (Ephesians 5:18).
I remember after my dad passed away how lonely I felt.
Prior to his death, I would sometimes imagine coming home to an empty house. No one asking me to do anything or to go anywhere. I could just go home after work and do nothing (if that’s what I wanted to do).
After his transition, I wasn’t looking for another dad, but I was constantly searching for someone or something to fill the void and the emptiness I had.
But no matter what I did or who I was with, nothing or no one could fill that void. They could not make me feel better. Sometimes I walked away feeling worse.
I was still sad and empty.
But that’s because the Holy Spirit is the Filler. He fills the void. He fills the emptiness. He fills the loneliness. He fills those areas that are broken.
I had placed such high expectations on people. I was expecting so much from people that I had stopped expecting anything from God. I wanted them to be this in my life and I wanted them to do that in my life – not realizing that they needed the same Person I needed. They couldn’t fix me and I sure couldn’t fix them.
But to all the people I hurt along the way, please forgive me for putting so much pressure on you to be who only God can be in my life.