Uncomfort Zone

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I was raised by my grandmother and I spent a lot of time with her – at home. I’ve always been a homebody and unfortunately, I’ve been that way for so many years. Before my dad died, I always thought about all the things I would like to do, but couldn’t do because of his illness.

Well, dad passed away this past August and you know what I realized? Some habits are hard to break. I am that person who will make plans, get excited about them and then cancel them the day before.

I already know. Hush.

Well, this is my birthday month and a couple months ago I made a list of things that I wanted to do every weekend. This weekend, I went to hear a very well known author and poet. Next weekend, I will be going to a concert with my daughter. I haven’t made any plans for the following weekend yet (but I see a body massage and facial in my future) and the last weekend of the month, I will be attending a women’s conference.

It is a fight to push myself to do something different. I didn’t know what it was called years ago, but I have dealt with anxiety for a long time. I’m glad to say that the attacks aren’t as bad as when I was a child. I also don’t like going somewhere alone. It would be so nice to have someone to do things with from time to time, but you know what? I have already missed so much in life waiting for the right time, waiting for the husband, etc.

I know some of you can’t relate, but I am so comfortable at home. I love being at home. Everything is at home – my laptop, TV, cell phone, bible, my notebook.

Well, not everything. While being in my comfort zone means having a regular and familiar routine and less anxiety, it also means no growth or change and a false sense of security. It means missing out on some great opportunities and meeting some great people.

For years, I have been afraid of change, but what I should be afraid of is staying the same.

2 thoughts on “Uncomfort Zone

    donnella baker said:
    October 6, 2019 at 12:40 am

    Hey how is thing going? Sorry for your loss the passing of your father.
    I so enjoy reading your blogs.
    This one hit home with me for so many years I have been walking in your shoes. I also desire the thought of a husband or (Male) just someone to hang out with. But about 5 years ago I got out of the feeling been a home body because I felt like I need someone to hang out with or just to go on trips with or out to eat. But now I realize I don’t need that person. I go out to eat by myself and to the movie. I even take some trips by myself with the senior citizen groups people I don’t even know. But by the end of the trip I have meet so many people so now when I go on the trip with the senior the same people are on the bus and I meet more new people. I take trips with my sister just to get out of that feeling. So I won’t fall into depression which is easy to do.
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      themeonnblog responded:
      October 6, 2019 at 12:48 am

      Hey lady! I’m doing well. Thank you for being one of my faithful readers and thanks for sharing your testimony with me. You’ve encouraged me so much. Love you!

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